Tuesday 27 October 2015

Embrace

"We can keep this disengaged and detached if you want, but you know I don't." he said, and I felt irresistibly drawn to turn and reach for him. As we embraced I felt his warmth and strength. Even so, I was still holding something back.

Thursday 22 October 2015

Broken glass vase

I had broken a large glass vase and considered not mentioning it. The vase was dusty and I doubted if it would be missed. Then I noticed pieces of glass scattered around and knew I had to mention it to avoid anyone injuring themselves .

Thursday 13 August 2015

Square or round

I seem to be attempting to summon up a power but in fact I am trying to hold it back and control it. It's like an energy or heat in my hands and the strength of it is alarming. Someone is asking me to use it to make the square pattern on a large wall hanging round. I decide to stop holding back the energy and try. It seems to work, although I sense that I have simply made clear that the shape is an illusion and it can appear square or round depending on your perception.



Thursday 6 August 2015

Cuts

Only fragments lately. One image that lingers is of small cuts on my fingers. They're very small but I can't see how they're ever going to heal as whenever I move my hand they open.


Friday 3 July 2015

A net of blood

A fragmentary image. I feel a discomfort in my right ear and am surprised to see a network of strands of dried blood fall from it.

Friday 20 February 2015

Homeless

A fragment in which a homeless man follows me and pleads with me to take him home and feed him. I respond that I can't, I just can't do that, I don't have room.

Tuesday 10 February 2015

Fire

I was in a large building and saw from a window that there was a fire in the equally large building opposite. It spread rapidly until the whole length was engulfed. There was a sense of foreboding, as if this was the start of events that would change everything. I saw someone I knew and we agreed that we should leave quickly. I went to collect some personal belongings and when I returned he had gone. I found that somehow I had picked up two pairs of gloves and was annoyed at myself for the duplication but decided they might be useful and put them in my pockets.

Wednesday 4 February 2015

Back to front

I'm at the back of a large building, outside the main structure moving via ledges and fire-escapes. It's dark and I'm trying to find a way down. I can travel a short way but keep coming up against obstacles. I see a man ahead of me who moves quickly down a certain route and I try to follow but find it too steep and insecure to continue. I feel a sense of vertigo when I try to see where he went and I have to wait a while to get back the nerve to move and try to find a different way. Eventually I find a way to get inside the building and I'm greeted by two people who seem familiar but they speak to me in Chinese. I don't understand what they're saying but it seems encouraging. I go out of the front of the building which appears, from this view, to be some kind of large railway station. The road outside slopes down.

Saturday 17 January 2015

Intimacy and intimidation

I wake up on what appears to be a summer day. I am surprised to find that I am with someone who I regard as thoughtful, serious and rather critical. We are lying in the open, on a hillside and dressed lightly. Our legs are entangled but I am facing away. I feel apprehensive at finding myself in such a casually intimate situation with someone I feel intimidated by. I wonder if I should move but I am physically comfortable and still lazy from sleep. I glance back and find he has an amused expression on his face.